GOD is not going anywhere until you fall back to Him again. :)

When everything is awesome then you get to know something which just.. crushes you. 

I posted before about my internship in Makati. And for me, I was very happy with it, and I know I did my best, exerted my effort very well and just gave it all. Then, a while a go, I found out all that effort were not appreciated by some people. It’s really a downer. It disturbed me.. but then, I remembered, that I wasn’t doing anything for them, or for the company, or really, for myself. I was doing everything for God, that is why I exerted that much effort. I wanted Him to see what I was doing, not other people, although I wanted to help them, too, but ultimately, this is really for Him.

I know He knows what I do, He knows what’s in my heart. And He knows my motivations. And, I realized too that, there are still many more people who appreciated the internship that I had and really expressed to me their gratitude, which, of course, is all for our Almighty God. :)

This is just a challenge, to be better person and to serve God better. I know I was discouraged but it’s not gonna deter me from reaching my dreams. 

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Looking forward to God’s plans,

msnicadr

I wrote this super long blog post but then when I was about to post it, our internet connection failed and it was lost in mid air. I am upset. But then, I realize, maybe it’s just the devil deterring me from sharing what glorious things God has done and continually doing in my life. 

True love isn’t just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace; before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid. (Joshua Harris- I Kissed Dating Goodbye) 

I talked about how God’s word changed my perspective of the love I’m giving to this person* and use it to make me draw nearer to Him, to His word and make myself a better person for His glory. 

SELF CONTROL. Before, I was an impulsive little freak with no concern whatsoever for what people will feel just as long as my personal desires were met. But it all changed until God’s love dawned on me.. through my lover*, He let me control myself. I was so blessed to fall in love with a man who taught me self-control in almost all aspects in life. He inspired me to wait on the God’s time and He inspired me to get closer to God, in many ways I have never imagined. And this make me praise God more.

PATIENCE. God has been most patient to me. I can come to Him whenever I have this emotional troubles that I can’t seem to contain. His patience, reflected through my lover. Never giving up on me no matter how hard I can be to handle. It overwhelms me to think that God has given me someone who would not give up on me that easy. And because of this, I also learned to be patient. Not only with him but also with other people. I gain the strength to be patient from God. He blessed me with it, and again and again, I say, His name is worthy to be praised. 

WORDS LEFT UNSAID. Being a pretty impulsive person, I’ve also a hard time controlling what I say. But, through searching and seeking God’s words, I’ve learned to control the words that I say and say only the things that help glorify God. Sometimes, silence is a therapy for me and my lover, especially when we feel uneasy towards each other. But in silence, we hear God’s voice. That’s true. When you clear your thoughts and stay still, it would be easier to hear God’s voice. 

It’s hard for some people to believe that I’ve never really had a formal boy friend before. But that doesn’t mean that I’ve never fallen in love before. But I believe, while we are not formally together, God is teaching us, helping us grow, learn and be ready for the day when He finally gives my heart to him and his heart to mine. :)

My love story is currently being written by God. :”> 

happily waiting,

msnicadr

*he is my first love.. we’ve been loving each other for 3 years now. :)

kapag once na sinanay mo ang sarili mong hanapin ang word ni God and then suddenly, you STOP. You will long for it. Kahit na ga’no mo i-ignore yung feeling na ‘yun. It will come and haunt you.

You will always feel incomplete, feel empty at the end of the day. 

Hahanapin mo talaga.. kahit ayaw mo. Kahit ayaw ng body mo, your spirit will long. Even if others will stop you, you will be hungry for it. He will call you no matter how much you ignore it, He will not give up!  And it will never be satisfied hanggang i-search mo ulit SYA and His word. 

Hinihintay ka lang naman ni God na bumalik Sakanya and realize that He is the only answer to your every need. When you put Him first, all else will surely follow (Matthew 6:33) then, when Your with Him, it still won’t be easy. Pero, I assure you, It’s worth it. 

So fight for Him, every single day of your life. Fight for Him to stay in your life. Long for His words. Supplement it with prayers. 

I know, because I’ve been through this cycle a lot of times. But I will hold on to God! He is the only one that completes me. And He is the only one that would NEVER LET ME GO. ♥

~msnicadr (5/17/12)

*taglish post

Happy Mother’s Day to my Mom! God has blessed me so much because of her. I love her so much! 

And to all your moms and mothers out there! :))

…because even if I don’t see Him, I feel Him everyday working in my life. Working through other people’s lives. His love conveyed to me through my family, my friends.. 

HIS LOVE NEVER FAILS TO AMAZE ME! ♥

I tried to find happiness..
…in things..
…in people..

but to no avail.
I found JOY in the arms of God,
in the delight of loving Him. ♥

Oh How He Loves us so!
“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you.” -Matthew 6:33

Lord, Your promises are TRUE! :”>

God will never stop loving me. ♥