I wrote this super long blog post but then when I was about to post it, our internet connection failed and it was lost in mid air. I am upset. But then, I realize, maybe it’s just the devil deterring me from sharing what glorious things God has done and continually doing in my life. 

True love isn’t just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace; before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid. (Joshua Harris- I Kissed Dating Goodbye) 

I talked about how God’s word changed my perspective of the love I’m giving to this person* and use it to make me draw nearer to Him, to His word and make myself a better person for His glory. 

SELF CONTROL. Before, I was an impulsive little freak with no concern whatsoever for what people will feel just as long as my personal desires were met. But it all changed until God’s love dawned on me.. through my lover*, He let me control myself. I was so blessed to fall in love with a man who taught me self-control in almost all aspects in life. He inspired me to wait on the God’s time and He inspired me to get closer to God, in many ways I have never imagined. And this make me praise God more.

PATIENCE. God has been most patient to me. I can come to Him whenever I have this emotional troubles that I can’t seem to contain. His patience, reflected through my lover. Never giving up on me no matter how hard I can be to handle. It overwhelms me to think that God has given me someone who would not give up on me that easy. And because of this, I also learned to be patient. Not only with him but also with other people. I gain the strength to be patient from God. He blessed me with it, and again and again, I say, His name is worthy to be praised. 

WORDS LEFT UNSAID. Being a pretty impulsive person, I’ve also a hard time controlling what I say. But, through searching and seeking God’s words, I’ve learned to control the words that I say and say only the things that help glorify God. Sometimes, silence is a therapy for me and my lover, especially when we feel uneasy towards each other. But in silence, we hear God’s voice. That’s true. When you clear your thoughts and stay still, it would be easier to hear God’s voice. 

It’s hard for some people to believe that I’ve never really had a formal boy friend before. But that doesn’t mean that I’ve never fallen in love before. But I believe, while we are not formally together, God is teaching us, helping us grow, learn and be ready for the day when He finally gives my heart to him and his heart to mine. :)

My love story is currently being written by God. :”> 

happily waiting,

msnicadr

*he is my first love.. we’ve been loving each other for 3 years now. :)

Lord, I offer my life to You! ♥